So, as some of you may already know I have a personal website where I sort of gloat about my anthropology skills which granted are few and far between. One of the features is a blog attached to the site which I figured I would use. Why not right? I could combine my webpage and my blog without having to visit two different sites to maintain them. Wrong! The blog feature on the site was horrible at best so after over a month of neglecting this blog I decided to delete the feature from my website and come back to blogger. Thank goodness I didn't delete this one. All I can say is that I am happy to be back!
In other news...I have to admit I feel sort of deflated lately. Maybe its the winter weather that has got me down. I am not sure. What I do know is that I have been really feeling like I am a fake, or a fraud as far as anthropology goes. Sure I have a bachelors degree in the field, and I spend a lot (and I mean A LOT) of time reading up on my favorite topics linked to anthropology but I have never really done anything anthropological. At best, I apply what I learned in school to my very none anthropological job. Many of the skills easily transfer but I am sure that is true of any liberal arts degree. I do not have the time, the resources, the funds or the sanity and will power to go through with a masters program at this point. I thought I might but to be perfectly honest, I just want to start my life outside of school. I think that what that means, as hard a pills as it will be to swallow, is to give up the hope of calling myself an anthropologist. I will always be one at heart but without a masters degree I will never get the opportunity to work as one, which is disappointing. Do I wanna give up? No. But I must accept the reality of my situation. I have no experience, just passion and that does not count on a resume. There are skills that I have and things that I currently do that I enjoy that I think I would be better pressed to put my time and energy into. That doesn't mean that I wont stop thinking about anthropology or the role it plays in my every day life or the lives of others. What it does mean is that I will continue to read, I will continue to write on this blog and I will continue to dream, all while living in the real world. While I know I would be a great anthropologist I must accept the fact that (pardon the curse) I am a damn good fundraiser and event planner. I love the work that I do and I thrive in the non-profit environment. Whether I remain a Community Outreach Specialist or move onto other marketing or public relations positions, I will always remain an anthropologist at heart and I will always be able to use the skills I learned in any career path that I may choose.
